But, not me!

I wait eagerly, I wait everyday.

I have thousands of things to tell you, I have hundreds of smiles to share with you.

I wait for you to come and sit with me.

And ask me how I am.

And ask me how things went since morning.

I am tired sometimes, to prove that I am strong.

To prove that I don’t need anyone to ask me.

To prove that I can handle and that I’m fine.

To prove that I can do it alone.

I’m tired of pretending being happy to the level of normalcy,

On the days when I’m not!

I check my phone a thousands times,

To see if I have got one text from you,

In reply of my 10 texts.

I feel anxious, keep giving excuses to my mind,

You must be busy with work, and I shouldn’t distract you.

I wait to eat with you, not to see you share my share with others.

Right in front of me!

When I call you and you don’t answer,

When I text you and you don’t reply,

I wait to see if you check on me and ask if I’m okay!

You got the things so easily from me,

That people crave for all life through.

And I see you taking me for granted,

When you know not, that I may disappear.

If not physically, than mentally.

I forgot to tell you, things that I keep telling my heart.

Do not expect,

People will never value the things they get easily.

In the pressure of not expecting things from you,

I kill myself every moment, thinking that I shouldn’t bother you,

Because you are going through a battle too…

I hate to feel lonely when I have you,

And you don’t realize sometimes, when you make me alone in your presence.

But you will wake up some day,

When it will be too late,

You will wake up when you might have everything, but not me!

You will have everybody, but not me!